Neurosis
A fellow blogger in my class brought up the subject of a very mobile childhood where she moved so often that she went to like 19 different schools. I replied to her that she could of been writing about my crazy life.
It was neurotic until I got married at nineteen just to create a life for myself where I wasn't moving every 6 months. No, my father wasn't in the military. He had a steady government job. My parents are still as neurotic as ever and continue to move for no apparent reason every 6 to 9 months. [I'm using this blogspot as an analyst's couch.]
My life was as chaotic as ever. Imagine being ripped out of school in the middle of the freakin' school year just to move across town and a different school district. No rhyme or reason. We just gotta go. I wonder if they were in the WPP or something. Seriously. Some crazy shit went down in my family - we were constantly on the move. I could never foster any friendships because I knew I'd be moving in a few months. What was the use?
I'm still mad at my parents for moving every few months and it doesn't even affect me anymore. I've been in my current abode for 14 years now. That's the longest time I've EVER been in one house. I love it.
So, because my life was so chaotic I am constantly seeking solace and serenity. I actually have it finally with my husband of 12 years--he's the embodiment of calm. Thank you, Carl. I guess that's it.
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Quote of the Day:
Is there no way out of the mind?
Sylvia Plath
It was neurotic until I got married at nineteen just to create a life for myself where I wasn't moving every 6 months. No, my father wasn't in the military. He had a steady government job. My parents are still as neurotic as ever and continue to move for no apparent reason every 6 to 9 months. [I'm using this blogspot as an analyst's couch.]
My life was as chaotic as ever. Imagine being ripped out of school in the middle of the freakin' school year just to move across town and a different school district. No rhyme or reason. We just gotta go. I wonder if they were in the WPP or something. Seriously. Some crazy shit went down in my family - we were constantly on the move. I could never foster any friendships because I knew I'd be moving in a few months. What was the use?
I'm still mad at my parents for moving every few months and it doesn't even affect me anymore. I've been in my current abode for 14 years now. That's the longest time I've EVER been in one house. I love it.
So, because my life was so chaotic I am constantly seeking solace and serenity. I actually have it finally with my husband of 12 years--he's the embodiment of calm. Thank you, Carl. I guess that's it.
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Quote of the Day:
Is there no way out of the mind?
Sylvia Plath
posted by L. Maria Thomas | 6:24 PM
2 Comments:
sylvia plath. she has been close to my heart for years now. she asks "is there no way out of the mind" and my heart breaks for her. she couldnt find freedom from herself.
but in an unstable environment, all we have is ourselves. the only solace i had was my mind. there was my freedom.
you are sane now.
Thank you, Keri.
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